It really is Tuesday

Alright, a couple things.

1. I need some serious help in the eyebrow drawing department. They are absolutely atrocious. So I figured, why the hell not and bought an eye brown pencil tonight. Yeaaaaaaahh ’bout that. Imma need to Youtube that shit apparently. and maybe tweeze them to give them a shape hahaha. It has been months since Ive tried to tame those bad boys.
2. I have been feeling really own and hard on myself as of late. I weighed myself not too long ago and I am approximately 20lbs heavier than I was when I was 9 months pregnant and ready to explode. Its my own fault though, I lack motivation to go to the gym, work out at home, eat better, even make myself a lunch each day. I suck at it. If I didn’t have to do anything about diet or working out and not have to pay a million dollars for a special weight loss pill, then I would do it in a heart beat. Once its warmer out then I will be more inclined on actually walking outside each day but when its snowy and colder than my black heart then it is a little harder to get out. I do need to do something about it though. I’m half assed on track with having the material things in my life pulled together so I am having a little more energy from that. I am a long ways away from where I want to be in so many aspects of my life though  and tired. I am just tired all of the time. Atleast I have been sleeping somewhat better because the spawn is also sleeping better.

Some days my anxiety goes through the roof. I’m really hoping that by writing this blog atleast every couple of days, it will hep me release some of the anxiety that I feel. I sometimes write things down on paper but I don’t keep up with it because, well, who wants to tell a piece of paper their feelings. This way it feels like I am telling someone, even if no one that ever reads any of this.

I will get my story out piece by piece over time but for now this will be for the little things.

As a side note, The Curse of Sleeping Beauty on Netflix, isn’t that great. Kinda weird. Definitely not a favourite, I would choose to watch Moana for the 15th time in two days instead.

So if anyone who comes across this blog post, and actually reads it the entire way through. If you have any suggestions on how to boost energy and motivation, or your favourite brow tutorial, drop me a line. I’d love to figure this stuff out.